This is possibly a quick episode, written under special circumstances. Those of you who read my blog will know that I’m halfway through a four day trip to kochi, where I’m accompanying my daughter and some of her classmates (and teachers) for a visit to the biennale.
Thank you for sharing this. I don’t really know you in person except that I have enjoyed reading your blogs. I just created an anonymous account to say what I want to say, coz I am not ready yet to publicly speak this under my name. Have you considered that you might be autistic? I say this because I have struggled to understand people all my life. Then my kid got diagnosed with autism when she was 2 and everything the doctors said about her autism just clicked for me. They were describing all my behaviors when they described autism. Also autism and ADHD really go together - autism is much more prevalent among the ADHD population than the general population and vice versa.
Take this however you will. I wanted to share coz figuring out this piece about myself helped me go a long way in understanding myself and reducing my anxiety. Previously I would question myself incessantly “why am I like this? Why am I weird “. But learning about my autism has helped me make my peace with myself and the world. Everything you wrote about difficulty understanding people unless they are explicit and the resulting anxiety resonated with me so much. Wishing you lots of peace.
Good vulnerable post. Thanks for sharing.
Have you checked up on the literature on attachment styles?
Her youtube lectures are quite good.
Your posts helps alot to understand ADHD better. Did you find any ways to be better at judgement?
I am curious - do you feel that aspergers and adhd are somewhat overlapping here or do you attribute all of this to lack of attention/focus? for example I consider myself neurotypical but I can relate to all of the things you write about when I am not focused on "listening" to what the person on the other side is really saying (body language, eyes, words, and in intimacy touch). So I am curious when you "can't gauge other people" what does it really feel like when you try to gauge?
I love this! ❤️